Damn 2?

I was remembering what happened months ago and decided to post here, but then I read that I already made a post about this lol. So here I will just post some informations I forget to put there. These posts on my blog always was for my future self and if someone discoverer this blog feel welcome to read ^^

- Well those self mutilation thoughts lasted for like one week, but it was like 24h especially when I was home, but it was really absurd like I said last post, about the sharp objects at home I found one to cut myself that week, I locked myself in the bathroom but the time that I tried I just started trembling and I got a little paralysed, do many things was passing though my head and just like a back vocal in my mind my body was saying things like " You will be relieved, the stress will go away" and that kind of stuff.

- About the drugs and the alcohol thing, I guess it was another way my body found to try to take my stress away since the self mutilation didn't work, these phase I don't remember so well how much time lasted but it was for more than one week, I was always very confused about everything. Thanks God these thoughts got away and I came back to normal, my normal is That I can't stand drugs and I don't like the alcohol taste. I know that got away bc I went to a party full of alcohol and I decided to not drink bc I don't need it, I can have fun without it, alcohol make my stomach hurts and just to fell my stomach hurt give anxiety since I always had a fragile digestive system and thrown up at parties when I was younger and had to deal with that alone since I never told my parents about this. And drugs, stay by my side with that I will totally punch your face lol, a boy from my work was smoking weed on my side and I felt very uncomfortable (thanks God lol)

So for past me, those two months ago was totally fine, I was very happy and everything was fine, it's just a phase, you will get through it I know <3 ^^